I WILL MAKE IT THRU THE WEEK...
monday morning, barely recovered and almost 2 hours late for work.
i fell asleep last night around 7. i turned my phone off and lived in the indent on my couch all weekend and yet somehow i was still tired yesterday. i woke up sometime around midnight feelin like i was waiting for something, like there was a purpose to my being awake. around 5 when i started drifting off again i was feelin a wee bit ripped off.
oh mondays, *sigh* what great big dangerous numbers will i have to divide by 2 for the feeble minded? what mystical banana's will cross my path and threaten my sanity this week?
my dad is at the specialist right now. i wonder if the fucko doctor is gonna tell us anything this time. i suppose this might have somethin to do with my restlessness.
i guess i should clean up some of this paperwork litterin my desk but no one else is workin so i cannot find it in myself quite yet either.
i think hanako is comin in today with baby amelia. david bought presents and i thought: how sweet and outta character. but then i found out it was company charged. still...oddly thoughtful of david. i still can't wrap my head around this. hanako - a mom. i could comprehend that she was preganant but nothing beyond that. my brain can't make the connection from the last 9 months to the life she cradles in her arms. janet and i made a visit the weekend before last. i'm in awe and i dared not blog about it till the notion settled in my head a bit.
friends gettin married, havin kids. i have never been so far removed. a few years ago, it seemed a matter of course. now, there is no certainty. i think we both see the insanity it woulda been tho - a lifetime of rubbin each other the wrong way. part of me is afraid the other liberated. i'm terrified of the inability to complete the "i'll always have..." statement, but i'm excited about all the ways it might turn out.
i'm feelin oddly sentimental today, or perhaps i'm just a little woozy from lack of sleep. no. i'm probably just bracing for another wacky week in the adventures of payroll.
i fell asleep last night around 7. i turned my phone off and lived in the indent on my couch all weekend and yet somehow i was still tired yesterday. i woke up sometime around midnight feelin like i was waiting for something, like there was a purpose to my being awake. around 5 when i started drifting off again i was feelin a wee bit ripped off.
oh mondays, *sigh* what great big dangerous numbers will i have to divide by 2 for the feeble minded? what mystical banana's will cross my path and threaten my sanity this week?
my dad is at the specialist right now. i wonder if the fucko doctor is gonna tell us anything this time. i suppose this might have somethin to do with my restlessness.
i guess i should clean up some of this paperwork litterin my desk but no one else is workin so i cannot find it in myself quite yet either.
i think hanako is comin in today with baby amelia. david bought presents and i thought: how sweet and outta character. but then i found out it was company charged. still...oddly thoughtful of david. i still can't wrap my head around this. hanako - a mom. i could comprehend that she was preganant but nothing beyond that. my brain can't make the connection from the last 9 months to the life she cradles in her arms. janet and i made a visit the weekend before last. i'm in awe and i dared not blog about it till the notion settled in my head a bit.
friends gettin married, havin kids. i have never been so far removed. a few years ago, it seemed a matter of course. now, there is no certainty. i think we both see the insanity it woulda been tho - a lifetime of rubbin each other the wrong way. part of me is afraid the other liberated. i'm terrified of the inability to complete the "i'll always have..." statement, but i'm excited about all the ways it might turn out.
i'm feelin oddly sentimental today, or perhaps i'm just a little woozy from lack of sleep. no. i'm probably just bracing for another wacky week in the adventures of payroll.
posted by tunabelly at 1:03 p.m.
2 Comments:
ooh ! please Congratulate Hanako for me! i emailed her but not sure if she got it or not.
-jaded
Good luck getting a little sleep. I get all blurgy and sentimental with it too.
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