RESTLESS

it's way too late to be up and i want a smoke. i don't have any, of course - 3 days smoke free. i'm twitchy and uncomfortable. i'm too hot, too cold- no not too cold, just uncomfortable. i wish jo was here, but that's how it is - i'm not really sure what the heck to do with u when u r here. i hate how much thinkin i do at this hour, the buzzin in my head drives me crazy. i list and relist all the things i need to do, then the things i want to do and then i list them again and i add to the list and make a list of all the things i need to do to get to the things in the first list of things i needed to do. the buzzin in my head is insanity cuz really, what can i do at 3 in the morning?