R U OK?

everywhere i turn, it seems my friends r all blah. i'm pretty blah too.

salsa guy and i decided to cool it for now. i'm sad and full of doubt. i've spent the weekend wondering if i've made some fatal mistake but i don't think so. i think i'm afraid and reluctant to going back to being alone but i do think it was the right decision. there were just some things that clearly wouldn't have worked and i've been too wrapped up in the crush to allow myself to see 'em. it's not healthy starting relationship thinkin that things'll change. that's for later on, when it's harder to turn back.

i saw my mom this morning. she asked if i'd been eating. i said 'yea - but my appetite has been kinda screwy.' she's sez, 'great, keep it up. maybe 5 more pounds and then i can ease up a bit.'

sometimes my mom just saps the life right outta me.

i hope those of u i haven't talked to r doin better.