BABBLES

it's one of those days that the emptiness is suffocating. each step is aimless, each action without meaning and each tear without apparent cause.

the lonliness seems forever whether i am looking ahead or behind.

i've been all consumed with missing ppl lately. abscence is becoming too familiar.

as i teeter on the ledge of another year older, i'm uncertain and full of doubt. anxious and unwilling to take the step off this to another. my footing uncertain, my will waivers. the year in passing filled with near perfection, so close it hurt. i could physically feel aching to pull it closer, into focus, into reality, into my life.

the ledge i cling to disappears and i drop into another year.

so much ventured. nothing gained.