day 3 smoke free - again. i went 3 days smoke free and broke on saturday. now it's 3 again. it's not even hard anymore, but i'm still having trouble catching my breath.

phil keeps callin. he knows i'm upset. i don't want to talk to him. he's so sweet. *gag* i would retract that but backspacing is too much effort right now.

work. *grumble, grumble, grumble* michelle thinks everyone hates her. who am i to correct her? k - well we don't hate her (k - well some of us do). busy, busy, busy and too much overtime.

my brother wants me to pick up xmas presents for my parents and he'll chip in half he sez. i'm a little warm and fuzzy - but just a little. and so the xmas list begins...i don't know why i'm so late gettin started this year.

xmas. i'm afraid. don't know how i'm gonna get through this one. everything else has been easy but xmas will be the hardest alone.