BC LIONS

i went to a football game last night...we won...i don't get it...

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thx janet ;0p

NOT A CLOUD IN SIGHT

i've been trying to write again but i never seem to go beyond the urge. i take out my pad and a comfy pen and then...stillness...silence. i'm looking around and searchin within to no avail. the weather's been great and i'm feeling good. suddenly i have nothing to write about. blue skies and good times don't seem to facilitate a bleed-on-page reaction in me. i guess i could gush-on-page but this is somehow less than poetic and somewhat crude.

maybe it's this new fangled method. the internet - live journal. i'm made public, exposed and unmasked. i'm allowing judgement. i flinch everytime i submit a new post. a coupla weeks ago i met phil. he kept asking me what i was afraid of. i've yet to brush the question aside nor found an answer to my satisfaction. though he wasn't referring to anything internet related, the question is certainly relevant even here. it has a feel of one of those questions that can't be properly answered. it's the question to be begged. why? because. why tho? BECAUSE. the answers are something i feel but not anything i could ever explain. why? well...just because...

SUPER FREAK

70's disco night at the commodore last night. no better times to be had! the hair was big, the chicks were shiny and everybody was boogyin. most in attendance dressed for the occassion. it was a night of bad suits and bad pick up lines.

• (on the way from car to commodor to rhonda) hey is there an airport near by cuz ya make me wanna fly
  
• (strange male approaching laura on dancefloor) two words baby! SOOUUL MAATE!
  
• (strange man approaching me on dancefloor while Super Freak is playin) this song's for u! this song was sooooo written for u - u sexy girl
  

needless to say we didn't make any new friends and called it around 1:30.
rhonda just left on a flight to new york - 3 days there, 4 in montreal. i can't believe she's not gonna be here for the long weekend. crud!

• upcoming concerts at the commodore i'm lookin forward to:
  
• The Matthew Good Band http://www.hob.com/tickets/eventdetail.asp?eventid=27206
  Aimee Mann http://www.hob.com/tickets/eventdetail.asp?eventid=27088
  

anyone else?

UGHH

k - well friday i left work early and headed over to rhonda's to get ready for the indy. we didn't actually get there till 'round 5/6ish tho and so i didn't get to see any racing. poo! we wandered a bit and sat in the beer garden for a while.

we got to the concert early and snagged the best spots. rhonda's got a wee bit of a crush on the singer for Default - and who can blame her! Split Tract was the first band to play. http://www.splittract.com/ so good! the singer is a huge hunka yum too. (pictures r comin, i've just been too lazy to figure out how to get 'em off me camera. my memory card's almost full tho - so soon i will have little choice.) they'r just starting up it seems so they'r still allowing free downloads on their site.

the second band, the Trews. http://www.thetrewsmusic.com/ i didn't like these guys so much but there were a coupla drum solo's that drove me wild! also in attendance was Jeremy Taggart - the drummer from Our Lady Peace. he mostly stood off to the side but came out and did a drummin duetty-ditty. amazing!

Default...i'll say it again - RULES! http://www.defaultonline.com/ Dallas Smith is dreamy! not flashy at all and pays oober attention to his audience. i took a billion pics for rhonda, determined to get a good shot but being practically under him made it impossible to get a clear shot. oh well quantity over quality this time.

After the concert rhonda and i met getsey and we moseyed over to Celebrities to meet janet and colin(where ironically enough, rhonda and i both got hit on my crusty men). OMFG! i couldn't believe my eyes. celebrities is gorgeous. i was exhausted but just so excited to be there again. i loved the people we met, i love the servers, the atmosphere, i love love love it! must go back soon in more comfy shoes.

saturday was much slower. rhonda was obligated to some out-of-town family time so i decided to visit my dad. as always, a wee bit too depressing for me. then there was a visit to the restaurant to see me mom and my useless ape of a brother was there. bad day, oy!
the last week's been such a ride! it's proverbial butterflies and new adventures. courage and daring i didn't know was in me. saturday was grrrrreat for rhonda, laura and me but it was espesially momentous for me. laura and i gushed all the way home. i got things straighten out with P - finally! we're clear on where we stand and what we want. he's comfort and safety. vicarious with a net. i met E - hotty mchot on the dance floor! and in a way i met me. it's all so new and there's so much fun to be had. it makes me wanna cry thinkin 'bout rhonda leaving again, and it's depressing how much time i coulda had with her but instead was wasted.
no more wasting time and no more takin those who r most important for granted. sunday we went to the roxy, got home 'round 330, slept and went to work. rhonda's wearing me down to the bone, but what a summer it's gonna be!

WHO AM I?

i had a smoke in the car on my way home. i seem to be breakin all the rules that i so rigidly lived by. they all seemed so important at one point but when? - i don't remember, and why? - who knows. the lost time is blatant now, my life is coming into focus or rather blurring. no more obsessing over the point and making it all make sense. it's no longer needing, or supposed to - it's only want and it's whatever i want. no guilt, no apologies. it's just me and just now and shit is tomorrow and everyday after gonna be fuckin great!

baby steps - just lots of 'em. i can still smell the tension all over me, i'm fluttering and something in me is still dancing. they made me feel gorgeous tonight - it didn't take much and i'm thankful for that but i still find myself wishing that i could see what they see. or do they really? no. the time for analysis is past and for later - much later. for now, i don't feel dirty any more and i'm ok with that.
i'm ok.

!HE CALLED, HE CALLED! WEEEE...

i smoked up last night. it didn't take much but man i forgot how squinty my eyes can get. i was little miss giggles all night. hello bodily incapacitation and welcome back paranoid city! i was friggin flying!

i was late for work today, well later than usual. i can already hear the cars tuning and practicing for the race. the anticipation is mounting and i find meself gettin really excited 'bout how hot the race is gonna be. well i'm assuming that i'm only gonna be seein qualifying races today and not the big indy race itself. default is gonna rule and since we're already gonna be at the plaza of nations we'll be stopin by plush for a coupla drinks after. i'm on the list. i've never been on a list before - well not to my knowledge anyway - so i hope it's a pretty good friggin list.

!I'M A PRINCESS!

went to richards on richards last night to see the scissor sisters. http://www.scissorsisters.com/ they rocked, i've never seen anything like 'em before. we met rod there, very gay and quite fabulous. he called me a princess and thought i was 19. needless to say - i love him. he was almost as excited as rhonda to be seein the scissor sisters - and she was singin and dancin around on the street when she first found out.

the opening show featured the fitness. i think they royally sucked. the sound was ok but they were talentless hacks. there was a keyboard guy, a guitar guy, a girl on bass guitar and the she switched over the second keyboard every once in a while and a lead gal. first of all, less-than-five peice bands have a hard time impressing me. u'r guitar ppl better be fuckin awesome. this band, however, was by no means fuckin awesome material not even in the vicinity of. the chick on bass kept switchin over to the second keyboard and played the same two chords over and over again. the guy on guitar put his guitar away and just sortta screamed and pranced around the stage. the only thing consistent was the keyboard and the lead but really - who can't hollar the same 3 lines repetitively to a synthesizer?rhonda still bought their cd but she has a hard time dislikin anything, she gave points on originality.

in between shows last night, rhonda wanders away and rod, makin some chit chat, tells me that i'm obviously from money, i'm a princess and absolutely fan-fuckin-tastico. flattered? mostly - but it's still ringin in my head. when did i start lookin like that girl? the spoiled little asian gal? now i can't stop thinkin 'bout it. my new apartment, my new car, the way i look and all my spoils from being a sucker for consumerism amount to not a hard working or a sucessful power-gal but rather a princess who gets it all from daddy-moneybags.WTF! rod, u'r a beautiful person but u'r a fucker for bringin this to my attention. where's the solution? what now? fucker!

there's no recoverin from that. after the show we went to tonic. it's pretty dead on a wednesday but really, i didn't know what to expect. there was a raffle for cancer research of some sort and so, true to form, i bought a ticket. i won. i've never won, but i won second prize. it's quite exciting, i got two tickets to the bc lions game next thursday, three tickets to the indy tomorrow and the default concert at the plaza of nations after, $50 cactus club certificates, a $25 tonic certificate, two bottles of wine and a bunch of little goodies at the bottom of the basket that i've yet to explore. so if there's any football fans out there - i've got tickets for the takin. the indy, i'm not so excited about but default is gonna rock! http://www.defaultonline.com/ there's a company bbq tomorrow night too but i'm not goin cuz i won tickets.

fun. fun. fun.

EXHAUSTED

the weekend was uncharacteristically packed for me. i guess with rhonda being back and all i'll tag along to just about anything.

so friday i didn't manage to get to celebrities *sniff* but i ended up at the cellar. it was pretty laid back and much to my liking. i didn't get home till just before 7 in the morning and found myself quite disoriented with the daylight and not having slept yet thing.

saturday we lounged on english bay all day and caught a capoeira performance - if u've never seen this live it is highly recomended. laura and i are even thinking 'bout checkin out a coupla courses but it's itimidating. u seem to have to be in really great shape for something like this and yeowza these people were built like tanks - male and female alike.
http://www.capoeiraarts.com/
that night we were goin to the roxy but we ended up at tonic instead. i've never done this before! i assure u, quite unlike me. i've never talked to so many strangers before! i don't drink at all but oy can i ever act like i do. and tee hee hee - laura stole some guys belt. after that we went to plush and laura was pretty drunk by then. we had lost her as soon as we got there. i found her in the men's washroom. the night is always written off when someone gets that smashed! that and it was pretty dead. it was a nice place but they seemed pretty hurting for business. the z-95 disc jockey was there. he was on us right when we walked in and offered free drinks all around - even i had one (does this not just get stranger and stranger?!). he assured us that the place was really packed not that long ago. uh-huh

sunday we went for lunch at hell's kitchen on west 4th. what a menu! it was wasted on us since laura was pretty hung over and i think i'm comin down with whatever rhonda had and the rest of the day was spent at wreck beach.

so that in not so much of a nutshell is the new and improved reformed-me. i wore my bikini which has been collecting dust in a corner of my closet for years, i tanned, i partied, i drank and i'm ok. this must be a terribly boring re-tell of the weekend but it's a landmark for me. i woke up this morning not sure of who i am. i caught rhonda staring a coupla times just marveling at who i'd become. no i'm not ending world hunger or anything of significance but i'm living my life and havin a hellofa time. for once, it's really all about me.

HMMMMM...

celebrities was a bust. i drove by - it looked great but rhonda was still sick. i went out after she passed out to see this nightlife thing that everyone's been raving about.

i just got home, i think i just did what's refered to as partying. i feel kinda dirty - am i ok with that?

i hope rhonda gets better soon.

OFFICE RANTS

celebrities' grand re-opening tonight, weeeeeeeeee...!

i'm at work diligently waiting out the day. i'm all dressed for tonight, sassy skort, sexy boots, cutie tank top and a funky jacketey-type-thing. my strange immigrant co-worker just told me that i look like a hooker! or rather i "look like the character from Pretty Woman." not cool. michelle insults you all day long and seems completely oblivious to any offense taken. she's quite ignorant 'bout the culture here but i wonder if she's secretly snickerin at us when she's hidden behind her cubicle divider.

work's pretty laid back, there's no dress code - i've often rolled out of bed and showed up in the sweats that i slept in. every now and then one of the guys'll show up with a suit on if they got a thing that night, and hey i gotta thing tonight! it's not like i'm wearing a teeny tiny skirt and come-fuck-me boots. this is definitely worse than when she told me my face looked inflated on monday or last week when she said i have big hair (i'm told she meant 'a lot of hair' but it was taken to heart none-the-less). michelle sucks and she's sortta zaney. no one knows where her mind is - ever. i had a friend, an english fluent and perfect pitch friend, come visit me at the office once and michelle welcomed her to canada. WTF!

i'm usually not one to mind talking to people who don't speak english as their native tongue - hell, i've been there and still i'm lucky to get out a proper sentence every other try - but michelle just grinds at u till u'r rippin out yer hair, stabbin urself in the eye with various office supplies and making u contemplate the possibility of paper cutting yerself to death. little things... very little things, to drive u nuts all week! she likes to substitute the word eventually for finally.

me: are u done with that commercial yet?
michelle: *exasperated* yes, eventually!

WHAT NUMBER R U?

I am infinityYou may worship me,but from afar_
what number are you?this quiz by orsa

GETTIN READY

so where does one go to find some good ol' slutty attire?

...AND FRIDAY!

http://www.celebritiesnightclub.com/

WEDNESDAY, BABY!

http://suicidegirls.com/live/

NEW GROOVE

Currently PlayingSongs About JaneBy Maroon 5see related

i suddenly understand the aspirations of those who have insatiable urges to sleep with rock musicians.

http://www.maroon5.com/
yesterday at the Plaza of Nations with

http://www.bigcityrock.net/ opening for 'em.
and this guy...
my god, i could just eat him up!

I'M A MIST DRAGON
Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Mist Dragon on the inside.
In the war between good and evil, a Mist Dragon tends to walk the fine line of Neutrality....When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon walks a fine line between Law and Chaos....As far as magical tendancies, Your inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy....During combat situations, a true Mist Dragon prefers to defeat opponents by the use of spells and other tactics....The Mist Dragon is a highly magical being. It makes it's home in moist areas, but seems to have the ability to appear in any fog or mist in any climate. It is unclear as to whether these dragons follow mist, or mist follows these dragons.'The Mist Dragon is a grayish blue in color, and floats freely in air as though it were mist itself. The Mist Dragon never leaves tracks or traces of it's passing. These dragons move very gracefully and swiftly through their element.'Mist Dragons are very free in nature and seem to be very unpredictable personalities. They are outspoken, and often are harbingers of great changes or happenings. 'This Dragons favorite elements are: Willow Trees and Blue Agate
http://Dragonhame.Com

A FAIRY TALE - thx jann

Once upon a time, in a land far away, a beautiful, independent, self-assured princess happened upon a frog as she sat, contemplating ecological issues on the shores of an unpolluted pond in a verdant meadow near her castle. The frog hopped into the princess' lap and said: Elegant Lady, I was once a handsome prince, until an evil witch cast a spell upon me. One kiss from you, however, and I will turn back into the dapper, young prince that I am and then, my sweet, we can marry and setup housekeeping in your castle with my mother, where you can prepare my meals, clean my clothes, bear my children, and forever feel grateful and happy doing so.
That night, as the princess dined sumptuously on a repast of lightly sautéed frog legs seasoned in a white wine and onion cream sauce, she chuckled and thought to herself:
I don't fucking think so...

HOMECOMING

i've been growing, and in ur abscence it's been a painful journey. i live in a new home in a new body and my mantra has changed - is changing. my eyes anxious for a long cry - somehow i believe it'll be better with u.

i've ached for u. i'm still clawing my way out of that dark place i so often find myself but i know when i do - there'll be no one more proud than u. and me, no one more loved.
i'll see u tomorrow.

SHAKY NEW CYBER LEGS

so this is the internet, eh? seems like a nice enough place.
i don't know where i'm goin with this but i'm sure it'll be a nice place once i get there.