CATCH UP

i'm breathing deep, sittin back and reveling in this novel thing called free time that i have so precsious little of nowadays. it's weird sittin down at the computer and bloggin. it's like goin home and opening the door to weeks of clutter.

work - well it's been work. the industry is slowing down, right on schedule. everything is as usual.

dance - i feel like i've plateaued. i don't feel that i'm as good as i should be for someone who takes as many classes as i do. i'm doin something wrong - but what? it's not that i have to practice more (i don't actually think that's possible) but i have to find a more effective way to practice? does that make any sense?

oh yea - the Vancouver International Salsa Congress is right around the corner. it's one hell of show for anyone interested. i caught them last year and i've been hooked ever since.

family - my dad was diagnosed with TB. i went in to get tested too even tho the chances of having caught it were minimal. i was negative but this only means that i'm mot allowed around my dad until he's no longer contagious. it's been weeks since i've seen him and the guilt is getting to me.

love - ? well, i don't really know where i'm at in this department. i'm enjoying what have and trying not to over analyze the situation. i am content - no, i'm happy. there's a gorgeous guy and he makes me feel like a million bucks. what else is there? wanting more would just be greedy, wouldn't it?

life in general has been good to me. i went to bowen island last weekend. i recharged my batteries and did some much needed nothing for my birthday. so i'm another year older - whatever that means.

i'm feelin a little out of touch with myself lately. i'm always on the go, go, go and there's never a chance to take a moment, to spend a little bit of time inside my head. who knows what i'll unearth when i finally do.

i've hit my target weight. i'm in great shape. but my target weight was a lie. i actually want to lose 10 more pounds but it's seemingly impossible right now. a lot of people have argued that perhaps 10 more pounds for me might not be so healthy but my BMI is currently just over 23 - dropping it below 22 wouldn't be unhealthy, it actually seems ideal.

8 THINGS

i was tagged to this a while ago but life has been hectic and so bloggin has become the impossible.

8 things

i plan to do before i die:

1. travel
2. publish a book
3. write a screenplay
4. develop a children's series
5. read all the books i own
6. learn to read & write chinese
7. learn to speak mandarin
8. be in a musical

i can do:

1. make stuffed animals dance
2. speak cantonese fluently
3. eat 10 LBS of shrimp all by myself
4. sleep after drinkin coffee
5. make ugly things
6. appreciate geekiness
7. make my dad laugh
8. forgive

i cannot do:

1. take in any more pets
2. stop myself from eating all the candy
3. write
4. cross my eyes
5. stop fidgiting
6. figure skate - or just skate for that matter
7. swim
8. ride a bike

that attract me the same/opposite sex:

1. wit
2. an inviting smile
3. dark hair
4. the ability to dance
5. laid back personality
6. artistic
7. appreciation for quirkiness
8. a fondess for cats

things i often say:

1. kick ass
2. what doings?
3. shiny
4. that's terrible
5. i don't know
6. la la la la la
7. i don't give a flying fuck
8. go team!

celeb crushes

1. Michael Vartan
2. Julian McMahon
3. Gale Harold
4. Tom Welling
5. Adam Kaufman
6. Dallas Smith
7. Patrick Stewart
8. Joss Whedon

STRANGE ME FACTOIDS

i have never eaten a meatball sub until today.

OLP

gabriel & me
Originally uploaded by jennasi.

kick ass concert & the pix r up.

not the greatest pic but u get the idea - that's me & salsa guy.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

what if the hokey pokey is what it's all about?

BABBLES

it's one of those days that the emptiness is suffocating. each step is aimless, each action without meaning and each tear without apparent cause.

the lonliness seems forever whether i am looking ahead or behind.

i've been all consumed with missing ppl lately. abscence is becoming too familiar.

as i teeter on the ledge of another year older, i'm uncertain and full of doubt. anxious and unwilling to take the step off this to another. my footing uncertain, my will waivers. the year in passing filled with near perfection, so close it hurt. i could physically feel aching to pull it closer, into focus, into reality, into my life.

the ledge i cling to disappears and i drop into another year.

so much ventured. nothing gained.

REHERSAL DINNER

tonight.

can someone pls. expain!

ALL CONSUMED WITH BOREDOM

i've forgotten how hard it is to make urself do something u've already given up on.

the days r dragging, i'm distracted by the sun and the urge to go frolic outside.

bored

bored

bored

i'm goin away for my birthday weekend. i'm thinkin somewhere pretty and serene. i'm gonna rent a cottage with a couple of friends and escape city life for a day or two. hopefully i can get some writing done and re-enact some scenes from Enchanted April. afternoon tea in the garden sounds just perfect. any suggestions as to location?

unless something better is found i think we're gonna end up here. i was hopin for an ocean view tho.