DRAINAGE

i feel like i'm dying.

the short of it:

• i went up to quesnel for the weekend to "get away"
• we took a wrong turn somewhere - the drive which was s'possed to be 7hrs took 11
• i hit a deer on the way there - it took my psgr side mirror off but i don't know how injured it was, i couldn't find it after. i now have a fear of driving at night and i'm having nightmares of this bloody deer jumpin out at me all pissed of and shit so needless to say - i'm not sleeping well
• andy came up from LA to make sure i was ok after realizing how shaken up i was about the whole deer thing - he left yesterday
• the night i got back i needed to call janet in japan and found out my cell phone doesn't do international callin so i tried to buy a phone card online (JANET, I 'VE BEEN CALLING EVERY NIGHT, CAN'T GET TRHU)
• the site i went to was screwed up, it kept declining all my credit cards when i know i have enough to pay for the fuckin $10 calling card
• the next morning i woke up to mastercard tellin me that this website has been continuously charging my card for the last 4 hrs and i now owe them over $1000
• i got calls from my other 3 credit card companies as well that day
• the website people have no idea what happened and i've been on the phone way too much trying to fix all of this
• all of my credit cards have been cancelled
• ICBC was gonna jack my insurance to fix my mirror (estimated at about $900 worth of damage) but luckily the estimator found ONE hair on my mirror that i picked up off the highway and so conceeds that i did in fact hit a deer and not a pole but i'm still stuck paying a $300 deductable
• i got pulled over this morning for speeding. i used to go to school with the cop. he was so happy to see me that he stood on the street chattin away for a grand total of 25 minutes. i politely told him "it's been great but i'm really late for work" whereupon he turned stone cold, got pissy and proceeded to write me a $175 ticket!
• my dad has his first consultation with the cancer society - we're proceeding with radiation therapy which involve goin to the hospital every day for 2 weeks. how the fuck am i gonna get this much time off without losing pay? i can't afford that much time off and i need to save my vacation time to take my dad for his last trip to visit his family
• i picked up my car, i was so happy to have it back. familiarity is the best cure for trauma in my humble opinion but as i was driving back to work i noticed 3 little gashes in my door panel! they were fixing the mirror how did i get these gashes? they weren't huge but noticable enough that i first saw them out of my peripheral vision - u don't even need to look at right at 'em to notice 'em!
• this is worse than if it were totally destroyed! it's just a nick but SO close to perfect it hurts. i was debating for the last 2 hrs of work whether or not to take my car back. i was so emotionally drained that i really didn't want to haggle with anybody about who's fault these nicks were - even tho i am 100% sure they were not there when i dropped the car off
• i decided that i let too many of these little things go and as a result am never fully content with the things around me so i decided to go back. on my way back i noticed HUGE (3 in total, 'bout 4-6 inches each) gashes on the panel underneath my glove box. i was so glad i decided to go back.
• when i got back opened my psgr side door to show the guy these gashes and noticed that the grate over my speaker also sported a brand new gash across the whole panel
• i was told he would call a guy to fill 'em in but he's not sure there's much that can be done about the speaker grate. it can't really be filled and it's part of the door panel and replacing the whole panel would run about $700-800 - but we'll deal with this on monday and see how it goes?
• i desperately needed to be held by this point. with andy gone (and god i desperatly need him to come back, but that is too much to ask isn't it?) i tried calling everybody i knew (in vancouver) and no one answered their phone! no one. the prospect of coming home to an empty apartment, alone and hugless is enough to make me throw myself off a cliff.

the lonliness is palpable right now. i feel like i'm dying. everybody i left a message for has just started callin me back, my phones been ringing nonstop for the last half hour but since i'm home and in my favorite comfy jammys - i'm tuckin in for the night and goin to bed and praying for deer-free dreams. i've passed the needing of a hug for now, but not quite ok with being alone yet but i'm not goin anywhere - givin the way my luck has been goin this week, i'm afraid i'll get hit by a plane if i go for a walk or crushed by a boat fallin outta the sky if i dared to grab a cuppa sumthin with someone.

BY ASSOCIATION

This looks like it’s been around but I pulled it from Jaded. Looks like a good way to kill the morning and I’ve added a few questions.

The objective: pick one artist/band and using only song titles by that artist/band answer the following questions. I wanted to do Tori Amos and Sarah McLachlan too but perhaps another time.

Madonna

Are u male or female
What it Feels Like For a Girl

Describe how people feel about u
Something to Remember

Describe how u feel about yourself
Rescue Me

Describe your friends
Vogue

Describe your ex boy/girlfriend
Frozen

Describe your current boy/girlfriend
Beautiful Stranger

Describe where you want to be
Holiday

Describe what you want to be
Into the Groove

Describe how you live
Live to Tell

How do you love
Where Life Begins

Share some words of wisdom
Cherish

AN EXPERIMENT

I’ve been at the casino 3 nights in a row, staying for about a half hour each night. The first night I won $18, the next $24 and last night $18. The question is, have I just been lucky or can I continually win my lunch $ for the next day so long as I get out as soon as I’m up? I’ve been goin in with $20 and playin the funny 2 or 5 cent slots with the wacky sounds and cute graphics. There seems to be a bit of a payout within the first half hour. How long can I do this for without losing? How long can I maintain control over myself?

Running total: up $60

Wish me luck.

DEEP BREATHS

I’m so fuckin bored! Work is ceasing to be.

It’s a big sigh kinda day. Yet another friend is runnin off to asia and will probably come back married or some shit. It’s hard lookin around and being the only person standing still. Is it irony that I’ve wasted so much effort perfecting the art of standing still and not letting things get to me just to be saddened by it now? Or is it just pathetic?

My brother called me crying yesterday. strange, the weather didn’t forecast any frost in hell. My dad’s tumour is malignant, doctor sez dad needs to under the knife or chemo, dad’s to scared to operate, blah blah blah. I haven’t cried yet – is this strange? Am I pending a major meltdown? Or am I ok? I couldn’t stand the idea that operating might be the more desirable option and that dad would pass that up cuz he’s scared (I see where I get this dodge and forget mentality from) so I called the doctor myself to discuss. Turns out operating isn’t even a consideration. It’s chemo or radiation therapy. Don’t ask me the difference, I’d only shrug. How do 2 grow ups completely miss the point? I guess my dad has an excuse being ancient and 2nd language and all but WTF is my brother’s excuse. My mom called and asked that I go with my dad to the check up but I didn’t. I figured that my brother wasn’t working – it only made sense. Silly me.

Is it strange that I went directly into planning mode? Money, money and more money issues. It’s like a fire lit under my ass – I have so much to do.

Do u s’posse my dad is more disappointed that he never saw me graduate or that he never got to meet my husband? What’s scarier for him? I can’t decide. That I’m ill equipped or that I’m all alone – the polls r open, which will destroy me first?

WHERE'D SHE GO?

It’s the blank page. The last perfection, the last place that needed nothing.

What is the draw of a clean page and the writer’s trembling hand that makes poetry? What gives us the right to even assume poetry exists?

Am I still a writer just merely out of words or has the writer in me drowned beneath the bog of too many empty words that say nothing?

Lately it seems the only poetic thing about me is the delete button.

LAZY

monday morning.

day off.

it's gonna be a good day.

QUOTE OF THE DAY

i'm so good at drawing blanks.

-getsey

"THE CAT IS NOT A DOG"

i'm often accused of being easily amused and finding everything too amazing but i went to see Cat's (based on T.S. Eliot's wonderful Old Possum's Book of Practical Cats) last night and it really was amazing! i felt like bursting into tears, i was so happy to be there - not just in the theatre but to be surrounded by and getting to know the cats themselves. the dreamlike marvel is so terribly magical for one like myself who spends countless hours just watchin my own cats. this was my second time around and it dawned on me last night that the last time i saw this show i still hadn't lived with a cat yet. i've always loved cats but it wan't until i got one that i began to realize the depths of their individuality. my cats were never pets to me, just little people. they are, in a way, my best friends. they're not cats that i have but the characters i live with.

last night i swore that i had met every cat in the play in real life! even my 3 cats were in the play. i have often thought my cats were attending secret meetings in my absence and were annoyed by me when i'd thwart thier plans every now and then by going home early. my parents weren't big animal people - actually animals made no sense to them if u weren't gonna eat 'em so i didn't have any pets growning up. i sortta adopted my best friend's cat as my honorary pet. Garfield was much like the cartoon, big, orange and just grand. he liked to eat olives and had feline immune deficiency syndrome. i remember in grade school we used to have birthday parties for Garfield and we baked little easy-bake cakes that i'm pretty sure we shared with the cat. he died about 2 yrs ago at the ripe old age of 15 or 16, i think it was. it was hard watching him grow old and turn senile. it was harder letting him go. i went when he was put down and i swear it hurt me physically. Garfield was Gus from the play. he had lived a long and dignified life earning the right to brag about his glory days during the later parts of his life. this is my homage.

i got my first cat, Meowzer, 5 yrs ago. i went to the SPCA with my roomate,who was lookin for a dog but thank god she didn't get one! i'm not much of a dog person so i hung out in the back with the cats - all 3 of 'em. bad time of year to get a cat i guess, the pickin's were slim - but i wasn't there to get a cat anyway. Meowzer was the size of a small adult cat at just 4 months. he kept reachin his little paw through the bars of the cage and taunting me to play with him. i kept trying to get away as i could feel my reslove to resist waning and i really didn't feel i was ready for a cat yet. i had 4 rabbits at the time that had the run of the place, i was worried a cat might hurt 'em. i wanted a cat like nothing else but i thought i'd train myself for the responsibility with rabbits first (which turned out to be much more work than cats!) and since the rabbits were there first, i didn't feel it would be fair to bring someone home that they might percieve as a predator. after about 3.5 hours i couldn't do it any longer. Meowzer won, i signed the papers, packed him up and officially became the happiest gal on earth. i spent the next year glued to him - i couldn't stop watching him!

Meowzer's a gorgeous, gynormous tabby (the last i checked he was closin on 21 LBS). he looks exactly like what u would think a cat should look like, as jerry was so fond of saying. he looks alot like Munkustrap from the play (who is sorta the master of ceromonies and leader of the cats, 2nd only to Old Deuteronomy) but Meowzer's not nearly as stately nor comanding. personality-wise Meowzer's actually alot like the Rum Tum Tugger (the one i call the elvis-cat). he's aloof and absolutely full of himself. his favorite food is the bubbles in my bubble bath (although he does seem to swallow everythin that fits into his mouth) and his favorite game is make believing that he's a really ferocious cat. he is also known as the Big Cat.

Meowzer started sitting at the window and meowing after a coupla months. i soon realized that he was meowing at other cats in the street. i figured he was terribly lonely and i as a human could only understand so much. i decided he needed a pet. it was around spring time when i did this so i figured there would be at least a few kittens to choose from. i had decided that i didn't want another tabby - i thought they were sorta plain as far as cats went. i knew i wanted a kitten tho. much to my disappointment there were only 2 kittens there and they were sisters, one a tabby and the other black and white. they were in a cage with their mom, an old, well worn in cat. i spent the next 4 hrs fightin the urge to take all 3 of'em home. i couldn't bare the thought of seperating them.

i had decided to take the 2 kittens. no wait, then the poor mom would be left all alone and she looks so tired. she really needs someone to take care of her. i’ll hafta take all 3. no, that’s too many – i can’t take care of that many animals! but i was gonna take the 2 kittens, what's 1 more? (i still had 4 rabbits). maybe iI’ll just take the mom – no one ever wants the older cats, everybody’s lookin for kittens. O but look at how cute those kittens r! this was not an easy fight – i’m a pretty stubborn when it comes down to it. the mom and the black and white were sleepin the whole time i was there, the whole – very long – while. the little tabby (the one that looked a bit like a runt) tho was playing with one of the plastic balls with a bell inside of it. she was literally bouncing off the walls! she would bat the ball into the wall of the cage and hurtle her little body after it till she caught it and wrestled it to the ground and then she would kick it free again. i felt like she was putting on a show just for me. she was a blur of fuzzy fur. i took 1 deep breath, charged towards the forms and spat out “the tabby! I’ll take the tabby! quick before I change my mind!” i had finally decided that Meowzer, being just a kitten himself and lazy as heck to boot, needed a ball of energy to hang out with. the tabby would be perfect. i was told however that they weren’t ready for adoption yet, they were too young. this would never do – i’m not exactly known for my patience. when then?!?! i think the woman had to check with 3 different supervisors before they agreed that it was close enough and boy, what a nice girl i was to hang out at the SPCA all day! – nice? crazy with indecision, more like. so i got my little tabby and ran for the hills.

Meowzer’s hind legs were white so jerry had suggested Sox as a name. i obviously decided otherwise but i thought it was cute nonetheless. i had thought about naming Meowzer’s pet Sox but didn’t feel it was much of a girl name. she also had white hind legs and the tips of her front paws were also white so I decided she would be Mittens. it was love at first sight! Meowzer loved his new pet. i was worried at first that i wouldn’t love Mittens as much cuz i was so insanely in love with Meowzer, i didn’t think it could be possible to love anything else as much – or at all, for that matter. luckily i really do just love cats that much and i’ve realized that i don’t even care what they look like, what color, what breed, gender…none of it mattered. u cease to see these things when they become people.

Mittens is mischievous much like Rumpleteazer in the play (and Mittens & Meowzer certainly act alot like Rumpleteazer & Mungojerrie when they're together) but more fittingly i'd say she's Demeter. Mitten's is acutely aware of her surroundings, brave and tough like heck just like Demeter who is the first to notice the audience in the play and check out what she does in the 2nd act with Macavity. Mittens' favorite food is french fries and her favorite game is anything knockin cups over. she can't stand it when cups r upright. i've spent hours with her knockin 'em on their side and me puttin 'em back upright for her to knock 'em back over. Meowzer's 2nd favorite game is meowing at Mittens, asking if he can hit her. it's sounds somethin like "come on, just once, it won't even hurt." when she says no, he cries, pretends like he's mad then pretends that he doesn't care.

as fate (or the vet) would have it, a few months later, yet another cat chose me to take her home. it was one of my many many visits to the vet. there was a cat in a hamster cage meowing at me and gesturing for me to approach her. the vet asked if i wanted to hold her and it was all over for me. she was silky and grey, with white on her paws, her chest and underbelly. one of her ears is torn. half her tail is missin and what's left was broken in 3 different places. the vet said that the previous owners abused the cat. she was rescued and lived at the fraser valley animal shelter for a while where the staff called her Ann Landers and absolutely adorded her. but Ann was scheduled to be put down cuz she was takin too long to get adopted and there just simply was no more room for at the shelter so she was sent to my vet who takes on their overflow from time to time to save a few animals. he keeps them in his office and finds them new homes. but even this set up had an expiration date. at the time his office was packed, hence the cat in a hamster cage. it was the sadest thing i ever saw. the vet asked if i would foster Ann for "a few days" - just till he cleared some room for her in the office. he later admitted to knowing full well that i would never have the heart to bring her back knowing what her fate was.

and so the 7th member of our family was brought home and renamed Cookie (cuz she looks like she's had too many). i wasn't crazy about Ann Landers or a cat named Ann. Cookie loves people - even the strangers. she starts purrin like an engine when ever anyone gets near her. she can't be close enough to people. she loves everyone. Cookie is none other than Grizzilla. she is sad. she used to have nightmares and cry while she was sleeping. the other cats hate her and she wants nothing more than to be accepted and loved. she's a special cat to have been treated the way she was and still loves peole the way she does. the first coupla weeks i had her, jerry and i thought she would, at any moment, break into song and sing Memory.Cookie's favorite food is chinese pineapple buns and her favorite game is being loved and cuddled. she is also known as the Cat Slut. Meowzer's third favorite game is beatin the shit outta Cookie.

and so after the crazy roomate left, after a career change, after quiting a few jobs and findin new ones, after moving out of my parents basement, after moving to an our very own apt, after jerry left, after the rabbits all passed away from old age, after 5 years, them 3 r still my happy home.

5 AM - STILL BABBLING

the distance is tangible. how far are u and dare we stumble towards one another blinded and bleeding? i can't stop quivering for u but what then? what if i held the distance in my hands, let it burn a reading - a destiny - into my palm, and folded, and folded, and folded it into itself and then again till u were all that was left? what if it were u i held? what then?

it's never long enough with u and the moments between too long and aching but not quite long enough to heal. u r the cut, the gash - razor in hand - i slice into myself. the wound left gaping and bleeding the blood that draws u back each time.

what r we doing?

do we close the distance or do we run till we're out of breath and dying? if we put our hearts into the earth, will we be reborn and niave to the notion of each other? if the road to u were forgotten could i forget u as well?

QUOTE OF THE DAY

isn't it lunch yet? why r these clocks so slow.?

-adrian

UP N' COMIN UP NORTH

it's turning out to be a bit of a slow winter in the film industry but i know a chaotic frenzy of work is just around the corner. hopefully we can tuck some that under belts! here's a confirmed list of productions shooting in Canad:

PROJECT: DUNGEON SIEGE (Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Dungeon Seige Prod. Inc.
PRODUCER(S): Stephen Hegyes, Shawn Williamson, Dan Clarke
DIRECTOR: Uwe Boll
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Vancouver/Croatia
TENTATIVE START: June 20, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Follows the epic adventures of a farm girl who becomes a hero.

PROJECT: IN THE LAND OF WOMEN (Feature Film)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Land Films Inc.
PRODUCER(S): Steve Golin, David Kanter, Lawrence Kasdan, Barbara Kelly
DIRECTOR: Jonathan Kasdan
CAST: Meg Ryan, Adam Brody, Kristen Stewart
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: April 28, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Devastated over the breakup with his girlfriend, Carter Webb leaves Los Angeles to stay with his crazy grandmother in her suburban Detroit home, across the street from the Hardwicke family. As Carter struggles to reconcile his own inner conflicts, he is drawn into the pains and loves of the Hardwicke women, all of whom, in their own way, fall in love with Carter, and all of whom, in their own way, help him find himself.

PROJECT: MASTERS OF HORROR (Showtime / Series)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Reunion Pictures / Masters Productions I Ltd.
PRODUCER(S): Lisa Richardson, Tom Rowe, Andrew Deane, Keith Addis, Adam Goldworm, Ben Browning
DIRECTOR: Various (anthology series)
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: April 25, 2005
DESCRIPTION: An anthology series of 13 hour-long films to be directed and/or written by some of the genre's top names. John Landis will direct "Deer Woman" starring Brian Benben; Dario Argento will direct "Jennifer" based on the book by Bruce Jones and Bernie Wrightson starring Steven Weber; and Don Coscarelli will direct Incident "On And Off A Mountain Road," adapted by the director from Joe Lansdale's short story. Mick Garris will direct "Chocolate" adapted from his own short story; Stuart Gordon will direct "Dreams In The Witch House," adapted from HP Lovecraft's classic tale; and John Carpenter will direct "Cigarette Burns" from an original teleplay.

PROJECT: PACIFIC AIR 121 (Columbia / Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Hannah Rachel Productions Services Ltd.
PRODUCER(S): Craig Berenson, Don Granger, Penny Finkelman Cox, Sandra Rabins
DIRECTOR: David Ellis
CAST: Sam Jackson
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: June 6, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Centers around a ruthless assassin who unleashes a crate full of lethal snakes aboard a packed passenger jet over the Pacific Ocean in order to eliminate a witness in protective custody. The rookie pilot and frightened passengers must band together to survive.

PROJECT: RV (Columbia / Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): RV Camping Productions Ltd.
PRODUCER(S): Douglas Wick, Lucy Fisher, Graham Place
DIRECTOR: Barry Sonnenfeld
CAST: Robin Williams, Cheryl Hines
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: May 3, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Robin Williams portrays Bob McNeive, the patriarch of an average dysfunctional American family who is about to set off on the most dangerous, high-stakes, life-threatening and traumatizing adventure of their lives: two weeks together in a RV.

PROJECT: SCARY MOVIE 4 (Dimension / Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Zucker / Netter Productions
PRODUCER(S): Robert K. WeissDIRECTOR: David Zucker
CAST: Anna Faris
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: July, 2005
DESCRIPTION: This time out it's a spoof of not only other horror movies, but of superhero pictures as well.

PROJECT: SNOW ANGELS (Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Crossroads Films
PRODUCER(S): Dan Lindau, Camille Taylor, Paul Miller
DIRECTOR: Jesse Peretz
CAST: Sam Rockwell, Amanda Peet, Emily Mortimer
LOCATION(S): Vancouver
TENTATIVE START: April, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Arthur Parkinson is fourteen during the dreary winter of 1974, experiencing the confusing pangs of adolescence and the pain of his parents’ divorce. His world is shattered further by the sudden and violent death of Annie Marchand, his beloved former baby-sitter. Narrated by the adult Arthur, who continues to be haunted by memories, the story of a young man’s unraveling family and the circumstances leading up to Annie’s death forms the backdrop for an intimate tale of the price of love and belonging, told in a spare, translucent, and unexpectedly tender voice.

PROJECT: ADDICTED.COM (Lifetime / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Jaffe / Braunstein Films, LLC
PRODUCER(S): Michael Jaffe, Howard Braunstein, Michael Bremer, Paul Goff
DIRECTOR: Tom McLoughlin
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: April 25, 2005
DESCRIPTION: When high school swimming champion Justin Petersen becomes addicted to online pornography, the erotic images infest his mind and poison his life, destroying his relationship with his parents, his friends, and his girlfriend

PROJECT: BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE (ABC Family / Series)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Sony Pictures Television
PRODUCER(S): Paul Stupin, John Ryan
DIRECTOR: TBA
CAST: Daphne Zuniga, Sarah Foret, Torrey DeVitto
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: May 16, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Recently arrived in New York City and ready for a fresh start, the Kerr gals (mom Lynn and her two daughters, Sophie and Karen), are eager to experience all that the Big Apple has to offer.

PROJECT: BLACK CHRISTMAS (Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Adelstein / Parouse Productions / Memento Pictures
PRODUCER(S): Marty Adelstein, Dawn Parouse, Victor Solnicki, Marc Butan, Todd Wagner, Mark Cuban, James Wong, Steve Hoban, Scott Nemes, Clark Segal, Noah Segal, Satsuki Mitchell
DIRECTOR: Glen Morgan
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: September, 2005
DESCRIPTION: It's time for Christmas break, and the sorority sisters make plans for the holiday, but the strange anonymous phone calls are beginning to put them on edge. When Clare disappears, they contact the police, who doesn't express much concern. Meanwhile, Jess is planning to get an abortion, but boyfriend Peter is very much against it. The police finally begin to get concerned when a 13-year-old girl is found dead in the park. They set up a wiretap to the sorority house, but will they be in time to prevent a sorority girl attrition problem?

PROJECT: C.P.I. (Paramount / Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Cent Productions Inc.
PRODUCER(S): Paul Rosenberg, Jimmy Iovine, Arthur Lappin
DIRECTOR: Jim Sheridan
CAST: 50 Cent, Joy Bryant, Viola Davis
LOCATION(S): TorontoTENTATIVE START: April 11, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Marcus, a New York drug hustler from the hood, discovers his talent for rap and struggles to follow his dream and improve his life while raising a young family.

PROJECT: CODE BREAKERS (ESPN / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Orly Adelson Productions
PRODUCER(S): Orly Adelson
DIRECTOR: Rod Holcomb
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: Early June, 2005
DESCRIPTION: In August 1951, big time football led to big time corruption when eighty-three cadets - most of whom were players on legendary coach Earl "Red" Blaik's football team, including the coach's own son - were expelled from West Point for cheating. After Blaik took possession of the Army football program in 1940, he began to recruit players whose academic abilities were no match for their gridiron skills. In order to pass certain exams, these players were assigned a tutor whose nominal job was to assist the student but whose actual duty involved passing him "the poop."

PROJECT: FOUR MINUTES (ESPN / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Cypress Point Productions
PRODUCER(S): Gerry Abrams, Bud Greenspan
DIRECTOR: TBA
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: Spring, 2005
DESCRIPTION: There was a time when running the mile in four minutes was believed to be beyond the limits of human foot speed, and in all of sport it was the elusive holy grail. In 1952, after suffering defeat at the Helsinki Olympics, three world-class runners each set out to break this barrier. Roger Bannister was a young English medical student who epitomized the ideal of the amateur — still driven not just by winning but by the nobility of the pursuit. John Landy was the privileged son of a genteel Australian family, who as a boy preferred butterfly collecting to running but who trained relentlessly in an almost spiritual attempt to shape his body to this singular task. Then there was Wes Santee, the swaggering American, a Kansas farm boy and natural athlete who believed he was just plain better than everybody else.

PROJECT: MURDER IN THE HAMPTONS (MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): TBA
PRODUCER(S): Wendy Grean
DIRECTOR: Gerry Ciccoritti
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: May 9, 2005
DESCRIPTION: TBA

PROJECT: SILVER BELLS (CBS / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Hallmark Hall of Fame Productions, Inc.
PRODUCER(S): Richard Welsh, Brent Shields, Andy Gottlieb
DIRECTOR: Dick Lowry
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Toronto
TENTATIVE START: May 2, 2005
DESCRIPTION: Every year on the first day of December, Christopher Byrne traveled from his farm in Nova Scotia to sell his Christmas trees on the streets of Manhattan. But this year there'd be no cheer for the widower and his twelve-year-old daughter, Bridget. For New York City had taken Christy's only son, headstrong sixteen-year-old Danny, who'd run off without a trace. Librarian Catherine Tierney used to love the holidays: the lights, the carols, the nip in the air. But after her husband's death on Christmas Eve three years ago, the festivities seemed to start too early and last too long. Just before he died, Brian told his wife that he'd never leave her, that every Christmas he'd send Catherine a sign. On the quaint Chelsea street where she lives, Catherine will meet the tree seller from Nova Scotia. Both figured the world had forgotten the true meaning of Christmas. But they hadn't counted on finding each other, on fate, on second chances...and on a holiday gift of new love and new hope to last a lifetime.

PROJECT: 10.5 APOCALYPSE (NBC / Miniseries)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Pearl Pictures
PRODUCER(S): Gary Pearl, Michael Jaffe, Howard Braunstein
DIRECTOR: John Lafia
CAST: Beau Bridges, Kim Delaney, Dule Hill
LOCATION(S): Montreal
TENTATIVE START: May 31, 2005
DESCRIPTION: An unprecedented series of earthquakes and volcanic eruptions plague the western United States, and with them comes the growing realization that a rapidly expanding fault line from Canada to Mexico might potentially split the country right in half--and run right through a nuclear reactor, with cataclysmic results.

PROJECT: DROWNING (Lifetime / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Anne Carlucci Productions
PRODUCER(S): Anne Carlucci, Jean Bureau
DIRECTOR: TBA
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Montreal
TENTATIVE START: April 11, 2005
DESCRIPTION: TBA

PROJECT: PLATINUM RUSH (Lifetime / MOW)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Anne Carlucci Productions
PRODUCER(S): Anne Carlucci, Josee Mauffette, Jean Bureau, Stephen Greenberg
DIRECTOR: Richard Roy
CAST: TBA
LOCATION(S): Montreal
TENTATIVE START: July 6, 2005
DESCRIPTION: When Nicole Faulkner realizes that her husband has been leading a double life as a fence for a stolen platinum ring, she's caught between a rock and a hard place. Not only is Nicole being investigated by the FBI as a chief suspect, she's also been targeted for death by her husband's murderous associates. Pursued at every turn by assassins and Feds, Nicole sets out to trace her husband's whereabouts, piece together the mystery, and clear her name.

PROJECT: COMEBACK SEASON (Feature)
PRODUCTION COMPANY(S): Burns FilmsPRODUCER(S): Susan Cavan
DIRECTOR: Bruce McCulloch
CAST: Ray Liotta
LOCATION(S): Calgary
TENTATIVE START: May 8, 200
DESCRIPTION: Skylar, the local football star, has lost it all with one unlucky knee injury. His neighbor, Walter Pearce (Ray Liotta), has been tossed out of his house after admitting to his wife, Deborah, that he's had a brief inter-office affair. The timing couldn't be worse for Walter. His eldest daughter, Chloe, having just accepted a marriage proposal, prepares for her wedding day with the highest hopes of family harmony, even though her parents aren't speaking. Skylar's not Walter's favorite person, since a year earlier he broke the heart of Walter's youngest daughter, Christine, but after being tossed out of his house by wife, Deborah, and with no where to live, Walter and Skylar become roommates. In this unlikely alliance the men scramble for a second chance at love, stardom, and forgiveness from the women in their life. Circumstances becomes even more complicated when the once-jilted Christine returns to town to join sister Chloe in protectively rallying around their mom, as she tries to rebuild her life. The feisty trio of Pearce women make it clear that second

*i'm terribly confused about the 10.5 listing tho. that's the exact same movie i did a coupla years ago. same director, writer, cast, plot. what's goin on? it bombed so badly that it calls for a remake?!?!

ALL THINGS NARNIA

for updates on the Lion, the Witch & the Wardrobe feature film updates:

http://www.narniaweb.com/

FANTASTIC FOUR RESHOOT

yet again, cast & crew for the Fantastic Four are back reshooting. they're set up at the studio and Burrard @ Hastings till the 8th.

it is my mission to meet Julian McMahon *swoon*

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i'm not even sure where i stand on this issue although it seems that i am expected to lean a certain way:

The Citizens’ Coalition for the Protection of Canadian Films is presenting a brief to Canadian Heritage this May, 2005 to lobby for the creation of a Screen Quota System in Canada for feature films. visit the citizen's coalition site for information

MORE STUFF

thought i'd share. not sure how reliable this is but some of it sounds bad. come on! lizard boys?!?!

Here is a partial list of big-budget studio films, currently in development, waiting for the greenlight :

Non-Human Animal, writer Chris Bird, for DreamWorks SKG/Vanguard Films, producer John Williams. A personal injury lawyer is charmed by an activist into becoming a hero of the animal rights movement.Escape

From Libby Prison, writer Jay Wolpert, producer Dylan Sellers for Warner Bros. True story set in 1864 at the Confederate Army lockup in Richmond Virginia, where 109 Union soldiers escaped.

Green Monkeys, writer David Connaughton, John Trozak for Paramount. A combination live action-CG film based on the comic strip by Mickey and Betty Parskevas.

Revelation, writer Michael Petroni for Warner Bros., producers Robert Teitel, Mark Canton. About an FBI agent wounded while foiling an assassination attempt on a cardinal, first in line to replace the Pope.

Take Me To Your Leader, writer Marita Black, Simon Black for Paramount and Adam Sandler's Happy Madsion Productions. A NASA janitor accidentally gets launched into space, then falls back to Earth, landing in Iowa.

Land of Pleasant Living, writer Mark Lord for Focus Features. About a woman devastated by the death of her boyfriend, then confronts his ghost fifteen years later.

Magnum P.I., writer Michael McCullers for Universal/Imagine, producer Don Bellisario. A former Naval intelligence officer is hired to be the head of security for a wealthy absentee owner, using his mansion as a base to work his own detective cases. Based on the 1980-88 CBS TV show.

Penelope, writer Leslie Caveny about a young woman, plagued by a curse, who sets out on a journey of self-discovery. Screenwriter Caveny is executive producer of Everybody Loves Raymond.

Ahab's Wife, writer Helena Kriel from the book by Sena Jeter Naslund, producer Dan Halsted, Jonas Goodman, Harvey Kahn, John O'Hurley. A young girl poses as a boy to work among the sea-dog whalers of Nantucket. Eventually found out and set adrift, she is rescued by 'Capt. Ahab' and they start a great love together.

The Swimmer, based on the book by John Cheever. Story of a man who swims home from one backyard pool to another, with each stop evoking different suburban memories. Set in the Hamptons on Long Island, the story was previously used as the basis for the 1968 film, starring Burt Lancaster.

Under and Alone, writer Daniel Barnz, Ned Zeman for Warner Bros. Story of undercover agent 'Billy Queen', who infiltrates a notorious motorcycle gang.

Witness for the Prosecution, writer David E. Kelley for MGM, producer Marion Rosenberg, Dan Rissner. Courtroom thriller ahout a man accused of killing a wealthy widow. Remake of Billy Wilder's 1957 film.

911, writer Brandon Camp, Mike Thompson for Columbia Pictures, producer Mark Gordon. A '911' emergency operator, grieving over a death in the family, begins to receive eerie calls 24 hours before crimes are committed.

Fish Out Of Water, writer Ardwight Chamberlain, producer Jackie Collins, Steve Golin, Larry Kennar. A young woman comes to Hollywood intent on marrying a studio mogul, but winds up falling in love with a 'set caterer' instead.

Hard Hearts, writer Jim Uhls for Hyde Park. A bounty-hunting couple chase down dangerous prey while planning their upcoming nuptials.

Jingle Belle: Naughty & Nice, writer Gina Wendkos for Revolution Studios, producer Steve Tisch, Gary Goodman. About the rebellious teenage daughter of 'Santa' who goes off on her own, triggering a sequence of events that puts Christmas in jeopardy.

Skellig, writer Irena Brignull for Phoenix Pics, producer Annabel Jankel, Irena Brignull. About an 'ET' like creature that transforms the lives of a boy, his friend and his ailing sister.

W.A.S.P.S., writer Jan Eliasberg for Twentieth Century Fox. About female pilots during WWII, hired out of Sweetwater Texas by pilot 'Jackie Cochran' to ferry planes for the war effort. Mimi Rogers' Millbrook Farm Prods. will produce.

The Love God, writer Darryl Quarles for Universal/Imagine. About an heir to a men's magazine empire. A remake of the 1969 film starring Don Knotts.

Untitled Channing Gibson Project, writer Channing Gibson for Paramount, producer Lorenzo di Bonaventura. About female buddie cops.

The Iguana Brothers: A Tale of Two Lizards, writer Jeremy Pikser, from the book by Tony Johnston for Twentieth Century Fox, producer Robert Luketic, John Leguizamo. The CG adventures of iguanas 'Tom' and 'Dom'.

The Stuntman, writer Tim Day. About a fugitive on the run who takes over the role of a dead stuntman to evade capture by authorities. A remake of the 1981 film.

Silver Strike for Fox 2000. About a military unit trapped in Eastern Europe that discovers the enemy are vicious werewolves.

The Few, by Alex Kershaw for Paramount/CW Prods. About 'Billy Fiske', the first American pilot killed in World War II. Michael Mann and Tom Cruise will produce for Paramount.

The P.T. Johansen Field Guide To North American Monsters, writer Andrew Mudge, for Universal. About the son of a 'Sasquatch' hunter.

The Fly, writer Todd Lincoln for Twentieth Century Fox. About a scientist, experimenting with a 'transporter' device, who accidentally gets his molecules scrambled up with a house-fly. Another remake of the 1958 original.

The War Magician, writer Peter Buchman, based on the book by David Fisher for Paramount/CW Prods., producer Tony Eldridge, Tom Cruise, Paula Wagner, Colleen Camp. True story based on the life of 'Jasper Maskelyne', a stage magician who used hypnotic illusion to make the Suez Canal disappear, move the Alexandria Harbor and create a phantom army before the battle of El Alamein.

Eric Sevaried Story, writer Stephen Falick, Jeff Howard for Revolution Studios/Imagine Entertainment, producer Brian Grazer. Ron Howard wants to direct this true story about the CBS WWII news desk reporter, assigned to the Far East, then forced to parachute from a plane into China.

The Last Apostle, writer Tag Mendillo, Ric Waugh for Columbia Pictures, producer Mark Gordon. About an anti-hero with a dark secret, who strives to win an epic struggle of good over evil.

BABBLES

i am the girl that almost dates but never actually does.

it was weekend of fallin thru's and questionable substitutions.

i watched While U Were Sleeping again yesterday - romantic comedies r evil when u'r lonely...can anyone recomend some other good ones?

april fool's day was my brother's birthday. i said happy birthday to him for the first time in about 10 years and then i took him for lunch.

i got about an hour sleep last night. can anyone recomend some good adrenaline pumpin music? i can only listen to so much Metallica.

cancer is the devil and my dad can't seem to run fast or far enough.

addictions suck.

i made soy sauce chicken last night.

i retract my statement about BC always being 2nd pick. apparently, we are the third-largest production centre in North America after New York and Los Angeles. but then again maybe this is a circumstantial result?

i'm BORED!